From age four to age seventeen, I was owned by a FemDom girl. More recently it had became obvious from the taunting hints of her mother, that this was planned. The mom had done some exotic dancing and was herself a bit of a black sheep from a family whose men were often out of control. She married a half way decent family man but one that may have had a wondering eye. You know those things a little kid hears spoken by women when the men are outside or away. Absolutely no doubts do I have that they adopted methods to control the larger and physically stronger men. I was sort of razzed about this by some of them like her mom. She definitely believed men should be owned and controlled by women. I surprised them one time when I peeked around the corner and asked if that meant me too. One of them picked me up and said something like that especially meant me as I was just so cute and precious....
Up until that night of the Science Fair Party, that was how it was for me. My FemDom ownership included safety and protection by the Girls. Antoinette and her friends even took care of some bullies for me. Actually they were my friends but did like what they saw happening to me. I had without a doubt been their leader and now I was a pet to a party of girls. Important,.... there was never a sissy moment, just the opposite. That feminization and sissy stuff is all written into the play by sodomites. Then women are never in charge, and they are too dumb to know it. Unfortunately owning a man is too easy even for dumb, dumb women. Hey we got to demand a better lady to surrender to... 80) Yeah FemDom, send us your women that won't share their power with other men, those convinced that all men are equal and all women are their masters and some even their Wives and Mistresses.
Note my order of hierarchy? It really isn't mine. The FemDom I was raised with was about all women being master-esses, then a mate was chosen and he was her slave. If she liked him, he was forced to propose in as romantic a scene she could think of. Of course he is far beyond the point of consent by this time. Then he is enslaved legally by the bonds of matrimony (means Her property BTW) and now she is his Wife and Master but their is one more element left. She must consummate their marriage by taking him. It would probably by mutual choice at this point but from then on, he has got to know that she can initiate and take him anytime she wants, She is now supremely his Wife and Mistress. BTW: I would add I don't like to demean the word wife. Wife can't be a man no matter how noble his is and it carries with it the authority and legal respect only a Mistress is worthy of. That is the Real Femdom. A relationship of F/m regularly enforced and kept fidel. Remember, Female control of men was to reflect a superior form of matrimony that makes it impossible for the husband to cheat and because of their superiority, women never would and that is why they had a right to enforce chastity, actually fidelity upon the man.
Little did I know I was being delivered into the hands of four Cougars, two of which acted as a FemDom wannabees with no responsibility. FemDom was about women empowered to manage men for the man's own good and his and her betterment. AND of course all the benefits women would reap by the capture and surrender of these men. FemDom was first written about by the Greeks where the Wives used their femininity to enslave their men and take them off the battlefield where they had been fighting over the honor of a flousy that enjoyed watching men die pointlessly for her honor she didn't have. It was for our own good. But now at least two took charge and they were the wrong two.
I knocked on the door, several times and it finally opened. There stood high school senior and hostess, Rory with a "cat ate the mouse grin" and immediately the hair stood up on the back of my neck. I didn't like Rory, something was just... well, sadistically wrong with her. I am not getting into depth on the characters in this blog. The purpose is to explain what happened or how I believe it did happen, where my consent to FemDom Hypnosis ended and some of my feelings about that.
I was invited in to the manor and passing through the foyer, I followed to a dining nook with a bowl of punch on the table. I was starved, if you had read, I was participating in a "Science Fair" project involving fasting. I now figure I was the only one that had. I don't drink punch but she hands me this plastic cup she had just filled and says take it. I say no thanks, I don't drink punch but she insists. Its Hawaiian Punch, it will really knock you out but its not too sweet, it was.... I mean she made a point of dipping it just for me and this was before date rape drugs and all. My mine wasn't really thinking about that, but I don't imbibe even as an adult so if she dipped it, either it was safe or everybody was going to get drunk, right???
As I was standing there reluctant to take the cup of "Hawaiian Punch" I was getting edgy, something was just not right!!! Where are the others? I asked. Oh the girls are all here and in the Entertainment room. Little did I know for the next twenty some hours, I was going to be the entertainment. I said Girls, where are the guys? Oh you are the first one, if they are late they will have to wait a little longer to eat. Say this punch is really sweet, won't that skew the fasting results, Oh this is a protein fast so the sugar won't affect it that much. I now know that after fasting, that a dose of sugar is the last thing you want. It can almost knock you right out and it will cause you to become receptive to hypnosis. I was had and set up so well and it wasn't by any means just the sugary ending to a fast.
Uh where is everybody? I just told you the Gir.... I mean everybody else, where is your brothers and your parents. Mr...(Physics Instructor) told my parents this was a chaperoned event. I have decided only a Mistress should be allowed to schedule a man's events... Where's your parents? Where are your brothers? Oh my brothers had a merit badge outing, they won't be back until tomorrow afternoon and Mom and dad went out for Pizza! Wait! wait a moment! I thought we were going to have the pizza party tomorrow evening??? Oh we are but pizza is also allowed for the testing. You aren't one of those that will stick up their nose to pizza two night in a row are you? Well No, no I like pizza anytime I can get it including cold for breakfast. Oh, that's my good boy and grabs me by the arm like I was a boyfriend.
We entered the entertainment room and I was immediately greeted by the other three senior girls. What a warm reception. I was for a moment, glad the other guys hadn't arrived yet. Odd it seemed that these four older girls would make a fuss over me though. I was a brainy, nerdy type that happened to be a football tackle. I have to go back to the possibility the biology teacher had noticed I was a somnambulist. After I lost Antoinette, merely the sense of loss and uninvited memory of her charms would send me into trance. It was an involuntary, self-reinforcing hypnotic suggestion I found myself obedient to except it wasn't supposed to happen unless I was alone and safe.
Antoinette did care for me and watch out for me. About the only selfish thing she did was turn me into her "Pony Boy" and "Puppy Boy" I know I wasn't supposed to remember and I don't much about being a puppy. I do have a lot of memories about being a pony and it was so open when I was younger. She like to play "ponies" with the other girls and at school so playing that way seemed cute to the adults. What they didn't know, that right there under their noses, I didn't have a choice. They didn't know, except for her mom that is, that when she whispered in my ear, it wasn't secrets, it was commands I had to obey. There I was in front of adults and could not cry for help. But then I don't really remember wanting any either. Later she would ride me and that was fine too. She would be on my back and bend over whispering commands in my ear, commands by then I was eager to hear. She never ever took a crop to me, thankfully.
Sit down right here and finish your punch! Rory placed me between two rows of girls right in the center of this huge TV (for that era). It was one of the new 36" TVs, illegal to own in the U.S. I was into video, even had my own business video taping and now I was looking at stuff I had been drooling over at a trade show only two weeks before. The TV and the Sony Super Beta Max 1" were not due for import licensing until over a year away, and here one of each sat in this big home.
Two girls on my left, two girls on my right, Rory has sat herself down to after turning on the tv and started a tape playing. Rory said I have some things to get ready but I want to see how you do with this little contest. Now Rick, we know you a really sharp so as the tape starts lets see how quickly you notice something. It a secret so I am not going to give it away but lets see if you are as sharp as the girls here and see how long it takes (noted the girls giggle). Now Rick you see a triangle being drawn on the screen one leg at a time. Notice how they don't connect back up but draw another triangle on top again and again. Rick, keep your focused on the center to get the answer and a surprise. Concentrate concentrate and relax, don't get distracted or you'll lose it, yes just concentrate on the center of the triangle and notice how the drawing is beginning to look like a tunnel. You got to focus on the center of that tunnel to see what you are looking for. the tunnel gets deeper and is starting to change colors as it spirals around, the flashing colors are to distract you and make you miss so concentrate and you will see it, concentrate as the tunnel spiraling around and around drawing you in to keep you from seeing it so you have got to go deeper and deeper as the tunnel draws you in.
Ok now... I know this is a pretty effective induction and for me it was a great setup and capture through covert hypnosis. I would still like to find that tape. Now I probably wouldn't be impressed but then it was the beginning of computer animation. The triangles were vector drawings and probably to much effort to make a spiral, especially an infinity spiral as this tunnel on the screen was. One more thing, I was feeling slightly dizzy as I sat down. I would figure it is from all that starving I had done. Subsequent recovered memories yield a big blank also. I spent years trying to figure out what happened. I was sure I had to have been drugged. This was before the roofies and steroids that allowed date rape. These new drugs work on somewhat passive girls but I read with much less success on boys. On the other hand there is a drug, common among the rich in those days that if anything works best on men, better than anything else on women. These people with their illegal electronics could have obtained this male programming drug in the same country, the same day as the TV.
Keep in mind most of my life, I had been under hypnosis and post hypnotic commands and didn't even know what they were. I was sixteen before I saw some B&W releases that had been too tawdry to release on TV. There was a show about women being mind controlled to go breed with aliens and there were devices implanted in brains that made people do what the electronics commanded and then there was the "Woman in Green". First movie I saw with a believable induction. Had it not been for a commercial break, I might have tried to find a balcony to step off of. I was so glad I was alone at the time. What if my parents or my sister and her friends caught me? When I could I snapped off the TV and went and cleaned up. If it hadn't been so frightening as she misused her power, or for the commercial interruption I might have been stuck there for the rest of the day. I was struck in awe at the power a woman had over me and that was just TV. I was also terrified that for the first time, I could now conceive a woman would deny her maternal instincts and actually use her power to harm. For the next decade or two, I would have to turn that show off everytime it came on. Now it is a ho hum bore, I know it can't happen....except maybe for the drugs. Different drugs but still illegal and unusual drugs that must have been in my punch....
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