Hold it a moment! I know I need to move along yet I feel if a reader doesn't understand how I felt they won't get this. I have been told my experience excites people and that is not my intent. I don't believe a male should flop down, pull a female on top and say "I surrender." Although... I don't find that entirely unappealing! I also can see the obverse of a Wife pulling her husband down and clamping a leg iron on and tell him he is not going out with the boys until he has sent her to heaven a couple of times first.
I mentioned I knew and hypnotized some well known hypnodommes and they tried to pull domination on me. A couple of them conspired to make me a full time slave Dom (does that make sense???). Of course sense and female are often an oxymoronic concept. But I did understand and here is creation again. Men and women.... uh should I have started the sentence with Women and men, are meant to be friends allies and lovers. It's biological but it is the only way all of biology and spirituality come together. The rest is lust.
It is natural for the wfe to dominate her husband at sometimes and some places (not all). It is natural for the husband to submit to his wife sometimes and some places. I had a bossy female doctor and surgeon once, I never want to see her again. I have said "yes m'am" to Lady nurses though I don't take orders very well. God didn't give a helpmate or servant to man, he gave a companion and help meet. The implication is a tripod where man is a side, woman is a side and God holds them both. Only in the true union of husband and wife do they become complete and of the one flesh ADAM once was. If either cannot accept this then they must overcome their carnal nature.
Women give birth and nurture us all of our lives. We grow strong and we lead them in safety and security. In this time where the deck is stacked against men and sodomites use affirmative action, scholarships, politics and HR services to weaken men and make them powerless and effeminate, women must be sure they are not used for that purpose. I lay this at the door of women because often they have been left off the hook, allowed to desire power over men without the responsibility or fidelity. In other words women have become the subjects to that which they claim to detest most in men, lying, cheating and infidelity.
Funny thing is most Dommes do not want effeminate men in their lives and certainly not in their sons. I asked because I knew the power that was held over me as a boy and a young man. Part of why I am writing now. None of these gals used hypnosis to control their sons. Some where tempted with their daughter they said.
I would ask these dommes about their sons, almost to a one, they would "kill" a girl taking the advantage of their sons as in the manner of illusion and fantasy they try to convey. So from a young age we are at the mercy of our female kin but because of their healthy subconscious and hopefully spiritual minds, we find safety in their arms as their precious property. I am sure part of our male ID wants to return there at times.
Men are made to please and serve. Our service is first to God and as part of that service,it is our nature to serve and please our women. Often times that leaves them stamping their feet and pouting as we are tasked in doing what is best for them and the union we have with them. I have loved to leave women in such a foot stomping state because I know I have done what's right. I have even offered to bend a few over my knee. I would have to do that even if I were locked in some electric chastity. A man's burden is not always easy but no reason it can't often be delightful.
I was born to dominate and still am dominant. I like to metaphorize that as a Stallion. Women like to own stallions, they like to ride them, direct them, guide them, train them and condition them BUT! every woman needs to know she cannot control him. The moment she is over confident and abuses (usurps her authority) is the moment he teaches her a new lesson of his own.
My grandmother would order me to take a nap. I didn't want to and really couldn't. I was conditioned to obey the parental role but there was a deep schism. One day, a friend of mine who was tired of me being taken away for a nap in the middle of the best play time, told me I should refuse and sass my grandmother. He said that would make her stop. I was reluctant, I had never disobeyed in my life and never ever sassed someone I loved....
It broke my grandmother's heart and mine too. Did she know what power this other woman had given her little girl? Did the women joke about the ten year-old boy being his six year-old sister's slave and someone decide that was just what I needed? It was a solution to his mean bullying but I saw her order him around and even now he doesn't know why or he is not telling. He is not telling that if he did not mind her, she could make him drop what he was doing and go to bed. In our last conversation, he did mention being resentful of his mom. Oh how many times they would come to visit and he would forget himself and I would find him on the couch sleeping. I didn't understand that at all. Now I do! It seems now, mothers are teaching sisters to kick their brother's in the balls. And unfortunately the girls are all too eager. I guess I would rather be compelled to take a nap instead. I know my sister would like that too!
So.... recap, I am four, a tragedy takes Mom and Dad away for several months and I am deeply traumatized. If you have a mental health background and/or sufficiently trained in hypnosis, you know what that means and if you don't, then you don't have the skill sets to deal with that part any further. I disassociated I am sure, even though now I can't fully reconcile or re-associate it all. I am also sure my grandmother was traumatized and my hyperactivity because I couldn't deal with the situation, made it even worse for her. She is offered the help and a return favor to take in a little girl that has seen her mom pacify her older brother by sleepnosis. This little girl has learned how his trigger was implanted and used it herself to make him mind or sleep. Now it was my turn and she did it very well. I am not sure how long she had to keep up the daily inductions, I don't know just when she had achieved rapport and implanted a trigger. I do know, two years later I found myself having to obey rather than sleeping. I had to admit I was going to be hers for life, to her friends and they giggling and thinking her control over me was "marvelous...." I remember there was nothing I could do but stand there helplessly as the entertainment for these "older women". I also remember it was not ridicule but admiration in their eyes so somehow I felt a little pride in being owned. With nearly two years of deep two hour daily hypnotic conditioning, I mean really, what chance did a man have even if he was only six years old by that time?...
That is how I became a slave to Hypnotic FemDom, unwillingly, kicking and screaming all the way. I had to accept my grandmother's authority and responsibility over me. She made me assume the "nap" position and then my little master-ess took over and took me under. Months and months of hypnotic conditioning passed off as naps. My assertiveness got me taken down more than a notch or two. I wound up being a slave. Oh, not that you would notice it except for my aggressive desire to please some Ladies. 80)
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