Age 17, Locked in Hypnotic Chastity and no Mistress! I want to emphasise that I didn't even notice! I was heartbroken over the one true LOVE I ever had being taken from this world at its great loss. I lost the will to live. I wasn't going to stop and though not rudderless, my drive was gone. I felt so empty and purposeless. She had claimed me when I was age four and made me promise to marry her when I was age six. She loved to make me repeat that vow in front of her friends everytime we were together. You know, it was really weird, I was embarrassed to say it but yet, happy about it. I was under her compulsion, I knew what I was doing. I certainly would not have done it if I could have stopped myself. I simply had to obey her and thoroughly humiliated that she could make me do this. I loved her and I needed to obey her in spite of myself. My need and desire to please her overwhelmed me and I could not resist. However, everything I said was true and I wanted it with every ounce of my being. I knew it meant her control over me would grow even stronger no matter how hard I tried to fight it. Maybe, just maybe, that is how it should be with the right Lady.

That is how long term conditioning hypnosis can be. There is more to it but I am not handing this power to just anybody. If a six year-old girl can wield (well initiate) it then I can only be thankful she wanted a girl's fantasy marriage. Unfortunately I haven't a Lady today that feels this way. If there is one, I am reachable, even obtainable.

With my owner, my lady, my LOVE gone, I was in no condition to test her post hypnotic suggestions that kept me loyal, true and chaste. I would like to say I am still a Virgin of my own accord, well actually I would like to say and hope I still am. I would be sure but there I was lost and unbeknownst to me, greedy, hungry eyes were watching. They were eyes of four young cougars, seniors in high school....